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Vocational path of meditation practice

Since participating in the Shamatha Project in 2007, I've dedicated my life to full-immersion meditation retreats, in an effort to understand the mind from a first person perspective. My motivation is to explore our potential to grow, evolve, and work with the first-person phenomena that most directly influence factors like our quality of life, happiness, and our capacity to function at our best.In my experience, this essentially boils down to one phrase: Stream the Mind. If we stream our minds without grasping or contraction (rather than getting too caught up in streaming services like hulu or netflix) we have the potential to gain progressively more freedom, perspective, conscious influence, and access to our own awareness of what we truly are. And, as a result, we can gain an ability to make changes in our minds and lives that are unprecedented.It's my hope that, by learning these skills myself, I'll be able to help others make use of them as well.

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I currently offer one-on-one consultations in a wide variety of areas, based on a sliding scale. I've survived life-threatening illnesses through practice. I've been very fortunate to have the opportunity to navigate major blockages in various forms of skill development (whether in the context of spiritual practice, sport and performance, or academia) by working with mind training. If you feel I might be able to help you, I hope you'll please reach out using the button below.

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Above: with my brother and frequent retreatmate (left) at one of our retreat locations

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As a student of mental training at the best academic department in the country, I saw first-hand the difference that mind-training can make: People who work diligently to master it see results. I have seen such people alter the landscape of belief, as a result of pouring all their time and energy into testing the limits of human potential, in their given field. Some of them have been contemplatives. Some of them have been elite athletes, consultants, or business people living in modern society. However, in modern western culture, mental training is a field that is still in its infancy. The more I studied contemplative practice, the more clearly I could see how advanced it was, in comparison.By the time I was in graduate school, a number of yogis in Tibet, Bhutan and Nepal – who'd dedicated the entirety of their lives to high-level mental training – were collaborating with researchers. For decades, these kinds of individuals have been sought out by scientists – especially those scientists seeking to understand how mental training works, how trainable the mind might be, and what the connection is between mind and brain.

I'd like to become like them

These "Olympic-level Meditators" have had a significant impact on a number of fields – everything from the psychology of emotion, to our understanding of the benefits of altruism and compassion. Through investigating the mind, they have also come to conclusions about the nature of reality that parallel cutting-edge innovations in modern physics – a fact that seems inexplicable to many.As a result of their unparalleled performance on a number of laboratory measures, some of these meditators have been named "Happiest Person in the World.” This is a half-serious title – and it's been rejected by the meditators themselves – but I feel it's had a serious effect on the lives of modern people. Maybe a more serious effect than titles like "Fastest Person in the World," or, "Greatest Basketball Player in the World.” (Sorry LeBron.)

The value of meditation – and a sense of necessity around taking care of our minds – are becoming mainstream ideas, partially due to the incredible accomplishments of these professional meditators.

I may never be as skilled as they are, but I have a rare opportunity to contribute through collaboration with science, because throughout the course of my practice, a large amount of scientific data has been collected on me – starting when I had just a couple hundred hours of meditation training. During the Shamatha Project, researchers took everything from my blood and saliva, to EEG and cognitive measures.Until now, many in the scientific community have wondered whether these amazing meditators were just born different from the rest of us. The notion that the mind (and, as a result, the brain) can be trained to that extent, by anyone, is such a new concept that a lot of researchers refuse to believe it's true. If I'm able to make genuine progress on the path, I may be able to help prove the doubters wrong, in the process.

My hope is that this aspect of my life may eventually, in some small way, make an anonymous contribution to our culture's understanding of what advanced meditation training has to offer – while at the same time helping to preserve some of the world's most well-developed systems of mental training.

That kind of continuity can be difficult to maintain in the midst of factors like financial and situational uncertainty. Traditionally, meditators working with these methods, on a professional basis, always had the full support and understanding of their societies. In my case, I have neither – nearly everything I'm doing goes against the stream of modern culture.Beyond that, I have no real talent in these methods – but I've seen what happens, again and again, when untalented people give themselves entirely to something, and don't give up. I've seen this in my own life, as well as in others lives, in all kinds of disciplines.I've gotten a lot out of the years I've spent in full-time mind-training. I've also clearly seen how the path can progress, and what might be possible if one could give their life to professional practice – as dedicated practitioners have done for thousands of years. That's why I've cleared away everything to make vocational practice possible. It's what I'd like to do with my life.

I hope that, together, we can make meditation my profession.

My wonderful wife, Carmen, and I are hoping to find ways to make full-time practice sustainable, over the long-term, as a profession. If you'd like to set up a recurring donation, or make a one-time donation, you can do so through the button below. Thank you so much for your support! You can also reach out to either of us, anytime, to see if there are ways we might be able to help directly.

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Education

Prior to beginning full-time meditation training, I received an undergraduate degree from St. Lawrence University, completing two majors (Psychology and Religious Studies) and a minor (Asian studies – including a semester of field research in India, focused on the progression of meditation methods in Tibetan Buddhist paths to enlightenment.) My area of focus was in understanding systems for training the mind – both in contemplative traditions, and in modern psychology. I was very fortunate to receive awards for outstanding graduating senior in both my majors, and to graduate with honors, Phi Beta Kappa.I accepted a full-scholarship to attend graduate school at Penn State, which was (and still is) consistently ranked the best department in the country for my area of study. I was also honored to be given their award for outstanding incoming student to the department that year.

Asking for guidance

In 2004, towards the end of my time as an undergraduate, I asked Dr. B. Alan Wallace – a long-time personal student of the Dalai Lama, and founding figure in the Mind and Life dialogues between scientists and advanced meditation practitioners – how I could most effectively contribute to his work and vision. He told me that if I wanted to participate in the ongoing collaboration between science and meditation, I could do one of two things: either dedicate myself full-time to meditation practice, or get a PhD in psychology. In order to decide which road to take, I chose a master's program that gave me the freedom to explore both.

I did my best to learn everything I could about the tools being used to research meditation – as well as improve my meditation practice. I also wanted to follow Alan's personal example, by working to gain an understanding of the state of modern philosophy, ethics, and human potential as understood by modern science.

Below: Room in my first teacher's home, where I stayed for my first retreat

Mentors

In graduate school, I worked closely with two academic mentors, who very kindly supported me on all these interests: Dr. R. Scott Kretchmar (a long-time meditation practitioner, philosopher, and ethicist who had ongoing collaborative relationships with psychologists and psychophysiologists) and Dr. Semyon M. Slobounov, a psychophysiologist with a wide range of skills. Dr. Robert Eckhardt – a legendary researcher whose work has been published many times in Science and Nature – was also extremely generous with his time, fielding my questions about everything from the scientific method, to my research interests in meditation and human potential. Dr. David Yukelson – one of the world's most sought-after mind-training professionals in performance, pro athletics, and business – also very generously offered his personal guidance on a wide range of topics.

I was blessed to be able to do work in three EEG Labs – one in the Psychology Department, one in the Kinesiology Department, and one focused on using EEG and Virtual Reality technology to help athletes with traumatic brain injuries. I was given a lot of freedom to pursue my own interests, and work towards understanding the limitations and potentials of the equipment. I spent time reading papers and collecting data, to try to get an idea of what meditative achievement might look like on EEG (an extension of my honors thesis, which used biofeedback for the same purpose.) I worked on prototype tests and equipment for measuring meditators. At the suggestion of Dr. Clifford Saron, primary investigator for the Shamatha Project, I developed a prototype test for measuring subtlety of attention at the nostrils – meant to measure skill in mindfulness-of-breathing meditation.

Above: I spent a fair amount of time with images like this one, from Lutz et al. You can see the massive difference between the untrained control group, and practitioners with 10,000-40,000 hours of training.

Athletic training

I was also very lucky to be able to train, for many hours each week, with a number of national and world-class athletes. I felt that serious athletics gave me an experiential medium for testing the effectiveness of my own mental training, and better understanding the connection between my mind and body. High-level athletics provide a great arena for researching the effects mental training, because they yield such clearly measurable, quantifiable outcomes.

i'd like to dedicate my life to meditation

After the Shamatha Project, and several years of full-time meditation, I graduated with a Master of Science degree – and set aside my original plans (and some very kind offers from my mentors) to complete a PhD. I knew I wanted to focus on meditation full-time: it was clearly the most advanced, efficacious mental training system I'd ever encountered – and still is today.My wonderful wife Carmen and I are now working to find ways to make full-time practice our profession. If you'd like to donate toward these efforts, we hope the link below will be convenient for you. Please also feel free to reach out, anytime, to see if there's some way we might be able to help in your practice.

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"Passive House" Principles

The windows are quad-pane glass for efficiency and sound insulation. The walls, floor and roof structures are built with sound-studio-quality noise-dampening materials – and also meet Energy Star efficiency standards for the coldest regions of the continental United States (high R-value, tripple-air-sealed, draft-free, and fully thermally broken all-around.) Part of the idea was to invest in the building envelope up-front, in the hope of saving massive amounts of heating and cooling costs, over the long-term – and therefore making a life of meditation more cost effective.

First of its kind

It is the first building of it's kind to have achieved these levels of insulation while remaining portable, and receiving a Certificate of Occupancy. I made sure every material that went into the structure was certified low-emissions for indoor health – and tested them all, to be sure they could maintain a high indoor-air quality over long days of sealed-off meditation. (From early-on in life, I've had some health problems that benefit from good indoor air.) The design includes a ventilation system that provides high-efficiency fresh-air, via mini through-the-wall HRV units, made by Lunos.You can read a brief overview of the project, published on 475 High Performance Building Supply's website here.

thank you

The cabin was entirely funded, and mostly built, through donations of time and money from kind people like you (thank you!) I can't express how much it has helped me. Previously, out of necessity, I had sometimes meditated in everything from mobile-home-closets, to tar-paper-shacks with plastic vapor-barrier interior walls, to rooms or houses covered in black mold. I was very fortunate to meditate in some pretty normal structures as well. However, I learned over time that serious meditation retreat can create some unique problems in conventionally built structures – especially very small structures.

I want to mention that I'm grateful to a number of companies and firms who made this project possible – not only through their wonderful products and technical support, but also through their incredibly kind and generous assistance with my learning process:

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Audio/Video Teachings

◦ Q+A With Garchen Rinpoche – An opportunity to hear a question and answer session with one of the last living masters of old Tibet.◦ Retreat on Shamatha, Vipashyana, and the Four Applications of Mindfulness – 8 Weeks of Retreat teachings based on the book Minding Closely, one of my favorite books by Alan, and the best intro to practice I know of.◦ Teachings on A Spacious Path to Freedom: – Teachings from an 8 week retreat on one of the texts I refer to most frequently, and have found most helpful since 2005, when I first encountered it – available for free. (The text itself can be found here.)◦ Alan Wallace Wisdom Online Courses – A whole library of fantastic courses on beginner, intermediate and advanced meditation practice and theory.◦ SBI Media Library – A large archive of audio teachings from retreats (of varying lengths, up to 8 weeks.) Many of them are available for free download.◦ Alan Wallace Mind and Super-Mind Lecture – An early lecture by Alan, laying out his interest in, and vision for, contemplative science. This talk was a life-changer for several of the most serious practitioners I've gotten to know (link includes Powerpoint slides.)◦ Matthieu Ricard interviewed by Krista Tippett – This interview was one of the earlier resources that helped some of my close friends and family understand what I was doing with my life. It's an interview with French Buddhist master and translator Matthieu Ricard. His PhD work in genetics was done with Nobel Prize winners. After graduating, he left his career in science to study and practice Tibetan Buddhism full-time, under Kangyur Rinpoche – and later become the personal assistant of H.H. Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche, one of the greatest Buddhist masters and teachers of the 20th century. Krista Tippet speaks with him about his life and work.

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Free Books/Texts

◦ Dhammapadda – A collection of core, pithy teachings of the Buddha, compiled in free-standing verses. This is the best free version I've been able to find. Introduction by Bikkhu Bodhi.◦ Bodhicharyavatara ("A Guide to the Bodhisattva Way of Life," or "The Way of the Bodhisattva") – The most taught and practiced text in Tibetan Buddhism. An older translation, but free. For a more recent translation that includes English versions of both the Sanskrit original, and the Tibetan, see the translation by B. Alan Wallace and Vessna A. Wallace◦ Vissudhimagga ("The Path of Purification") – The most foundational commentary on the Buddha's teachings in the Theravada Tradition. Prosaic, technical, but accessible, it lays out the path to liberation according to early Buddhism.◦ Archive of Gyatrul Rinpoche's Recent Teachings – Down-to-earth, straight-to-the point, no-holds-barred, delightful teachings for modern practitioners. Usually spoken by Rinpoche, and recorded/transcribed by his wonderful assistants.◦ Dhammapada with Extensive Commentary – Includes the stories behind each verse, as well as helpful original language material and commentary.◦ Access to Insight – A database of the most core Theravada Buddhist literature, available for free.◦ Buddhanet – A massive database of Buddhist texts and teachings, all available for free download.

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science

◦Richard Davidson's Groundbreaking PNAS paper – A pioneering early study on the brain activity of meditators with 10,000-40,000 hours of training in advanced-level compassion practice. Collaborators included Antoine Lutz and Matthieu Ricard. The work behind this paper was discussed in some depth during Mind and Life Dialogues – which were some of the most significant scientific influences on the course of my life, from 2003 onward.◦ Database of Papers published from the Shamatha Project◦ Website for the Shamatha Project◦ Cultivating Emotional Balance – A research-based training program, which is a combination of validated theory and methods from Paul/Eve Ekman's Psychology research, the broader field of modern Psychology, and classic meditation theory and practice.

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Organizations

◦ Santa Barbara Institute for Consciousness Studies – B. Alan Wallace's non-profit, dedicated to preservation of authentic contemplative traditions.◦ Mind and Life – Research institute dedicated to fostering a mutually-beneficial union of science and contemplative wisdom.◦ Wisdom Publications – a great place to purchase Dharma ebooks directly from the source◦ Garchen Buddhist Institute – Garchen Rinpoche's center in Chino Valley, AZ. Hosts an ongoing stream of online and in-person teachings. Website includes an E-Library of resources that Rinpoche has used for teaching events.◦ Buddhist Digital Resource Center – Organization dedicated to seeking out, preserving, organizing, and disseminating Buddhist literature. Most traditional Buddhist literature is rare, and exists on fragile paper, or printing blocks. For a long time, the majority of it was in danger of being lost. The BDRC has preserved a massive amount of this literature in digital form. Because their archive is original language material, at this point it is most helpful for translators or those with Tibetan (and other) Language skills. I have not used it myself, but it's been incredibly helpful to the translators I've known. The BDRC does amazing work that I'm very grateful for.◦ Dharma Gates – A 501c3 dedicated to connecting sincere practitioners with the teachers, institutions, and resources that fit best with their interests and dispositions.

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